Being under control is usually a good thing, but not always. Total commitment is being all in and involves the risk of being out of control.
My father compared himself to my younger brother. He said “I don’t like to lift with all of my strength but Mark does.” Mark was a really good high school wrestler because he would use every ounce of energy he could summon to defeat his opponent.
I know a young woman who is very photogenic and has a beautiful smile but it is always a reserved smile. I’ve never seen a photo of her experiencing a real belly laugh. I see this because I’m the same way. I’m seventy years old and can only recall three or four times that I laughed so uncontrollably that my jaw and my stomach ached from the experience. Like my dad, I like to control myself and that makes me stop a couple of steps short of total commitment.
Those who will totally commit themselves to something are more apt to develop addictions than those of us who are under control but they too are the worlds most successful individuals. Total failure is often a challenge for them to get up and try again.
So here I am debating the pros and cons of control verses total commitment.
I think real commitment requires discipline. Commitment is good, but without control and deliberation it’s not commitment, it’s fanaticism. For all good things, there are twisted versions Satan has tried to turn to his image.
-Mary
As usual Mary, very thoughtful. Thank you for your excellent addition to my thoughts. And I do believe you’re my most faithful reader.